Fear: It’s Useless So GET RID OF IT!

Fear: a tiny four letter world, seemingly insignificant, but responsible for many of our poor decisions. Don’t believe me? Keep reading.

I have mentioned before, probably numerous times, that I am not an expert about things in general, but I know a lot about many different things, and most importantly, I AM an expert about MYSELF. I can honestly admit that 99% of the dreams, goals, ideas, ideals, aspirations, and inventions I have had over the years were deemed “too scary” for me to pursue. Now, that acknowledgment begs the question, “What in the world are you afraid of, girl!?” Well, let me count the ways (lol): I am afraid of failing, afraid of succeeding, afraid of hard work, afraid of sacrifice, afraid that I have no clue what in the world I am doing, afraid of being judged, and afraid of letting myself down. Pheew! That’s a lot of shit to be afraid of! Seeing the words types out is kind of like a shock to my mind. My Higher Self is like, “Girl, if you don’t stop being ridiculous and let us live this amazing life!” And you know what? She’s not wrong. What a waste of the MOST important commodity in life: TIME! Okay, so it should be a piece of cake to stop wasting my time on BS, unhelpful f-e-a-r, right? Well, let’s just say that is easier said than done, but certainly not impossible.

 

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How does marijuana fit into all this?

Way back in 2011, I was going through a majorly tough time. I was getting divorced, preparing for a custody battle, and was being screened for cervical AND ovarian cancer. I was feeling really shitty and SCARED! I was so afraid that I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, hardly smiled, and my body was manifesting all that negative energy. By the end of the year, when I finally received a miraculously clean bill of health, I told myself I was going to begin changing my life. I started saying “yes” to a few things I normally would shy away from and the behavior became contagious. Once I changed one thing, I had to keep making other changes.

Fast forward 6 years, I said “yes” to trying medical marijuana when my anxiety was beginning to get the best of me. At first it was just mere curiosity, but the second time I smoked (the first time was racked with paranoia), I noticed a major change in my personality. I immediately decided I needed to document my emotional and mental reactions and thus, this blog was born. At the time, I didn’t know I would be blogging about it in an open forum, but I was committed to taking detailed notes for my own personal growth.

In documenting my experiences, I’ve noticed that I am beginning to take the lessons I learn while I am high, and applying them to my sober life. For example, it’s easy to be fun, compassionate, caring, and easy-going when I’m high, but often times those things don’t come out unless I feel secure. When I’m high, I am always confident, secure, and relaxed, but the question became, “How can I be like this all the time?” Once I started having higher expectations of myself, it was a little easier to open myself up to even more opportunities. I found myself at social events where I formerly would’ve been a wallflower, suddenly morphed into the belle of the ball! I was boldly starting conversations with strangers, actively listening (not just waiting for the chance to talk), and even dancing! Ya’ll the dancing is HUGE for me! My friends still can’t believe I dance now when we go out, but my way of thinking is, I can’t believe I didn’t dance before.

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Photo Credit: Colorbox

 


Talk yourself UP, not down.

I always say that fear is crippling. I feel so incapacitated by it sometimes that it’s overwhelming. A perfect example of that is my writing. Logically I know I can write decently, and there is some type of enjoyment in it, but I am always plagued with mental blocks that deter me from being truly great. My initial go-to reaction is “Ugh, I don’t want to do this” or “What am I going to write about? I’m no expert.” Yeah, I basically talk myself out of it before I can even get started! Talk about destructive behavior. Geesh!

Because I am new to this New Thought way of thinking, my initial thoughts are still often negative and fear based, so I started rudely interrupting myself and interjecting positivity instead! It may sound silly, but as soon as I feel myself thinking something unhelpful, I allow my Higher Self to butt in and say something like “You’re an excellent writer with a great message to share.” I gotta admit, just reading that made me feel a little better and more confident. In a world full of Debbie Downers looking to drag my mental state to hell, why should I jump on the bandwagon? If I am not cheering for myself, who the hell else will? So, START BUILDING YOURSELF UP, too!


Don’t worry, you’ve done this before.

Yes, we know it isn’t easy peasy to just get rid of our fears, but as I previously said, it isn’t impossible. I have learned that NOTHING is impossible if the mind truly believes in it. Think about it this way: have you ever wanted to purchase something that was outside of your budget, but you felt like you just had to have it anyway? What did you do to obtain what you wanted? This excludes someone else buying it for you; although, in some of those situations, you still likely had to do something to earn a gift, but I want you to allow your mind to focus on a time when you had to depend on yourself to get it. In all likelihood, you had to save money by skipping short term gratifying desires like dining out, shopping, etc. Or perhaps you needed to pick up a secondary stream of income.

Whatever method you used, it was all apart of the process to help you achieve your goal. It required sacrifice of your time, energy, and physical endurance. Do you see where this is going? I bet you do! So, if you apply that same commitment and energy to any goal, why wouldn’t the outcome be a success? More importantly, why aren’t our goals just as important as some bauble, game, or vacation? It’s a valid question and one that I have begun asking myself (clearly I just ask questions of myself all day. LBVS). At the end of the day, holding on to fear is only forcing what I truly desire further and further from my grasp and THAT, my friends, is the truly terrifying reality.

 

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Best advice?

Be kind and forgiving to yourself. Recognize that vulnerability can be scary, sure, but you also need it to be brave. Bravery to me is courage + fear. It’s okay to be afraid, but only as far as a general human reaction. Please, please, PLEASE do not allow it to incapacitate you. I know it’s tempting to give in to the downward spiral of fear and negativity, but do your absolute BEST to break that vicious, sh*tty cycle. Where as it ever gotten you, anyway? Don’t forget, there’s always a sweet little heaven-sent plant that’s been cultivated, nurtured, and packaged at your local dispensary just for you. There’s no shame in giving yourself a little push of enlightenment. Besides…you might even enjoy it.😉

Til next time, tokers and jokers.

Hardy Har

The Pursuit of Higher Self

 

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Happiness = Positive Intent + Action

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Weed: Gorilla Glue + Green Ribbon


Hi guys. Thanks for stopping by again. So, the below post was actually written Saturday, October 14, 2017, but it has been a rather hectic few weeks for me. 

This post is a different animal for me, but I have to preface it by saying how happy I am that my message took this turn. I truly feel like the last week cumulatively contributed to the “ah-ha” moment I wrote about. I finally understand how vital being positive intrinsically is to life. The burdens I was suffering through up until Friday night/Saturday morning have dissipated from my immediate attention. I am focused only on helping others and being of good service to the world and am completely aware of my power to control my situations. This isn’t to say that the problems don’t need to be corrected, but it does allow me to be uplifted mentally so that I can focus on problem resolution. It may sound confusing, but I can assure you it isn’t. It is literally your own state of mind that will propel you forward. It is as simple as believing in yourself. That’s it. From there you are happy to be vulnerable enough to be of service to others. This is followed by your receipt of good karma. If what goes around comes around, it makes sense that if you live positively you’ll only receive good come-arounds. For a far better explanation, PUHLEASE check out a Michael Beckwith video on YouTube. Omg!

Alright, I won’t blab your head off because you still have the actual blog post to read. Let me know your thoughts, friends. 

Cheers,

Hardy Har


 

I have been living a strange pattern lately. Well, technically, all of our lives are composed of patterns, strange and/or otherwise. Anyway, the pattern: I noticed that when I am stressed and focused on the situation that encouraged the stress, I lose control of my thinking. This is not limited to one specific task or function. It encompasses all aspects of my life from my sleeping habits to eating habits to social behaviors and every single thing in between. When I’m in these moments of fear, (because that is all stress is: the manifestations of our internal fears), I feel crippled and unable to tap into my Higher Self. Higher Self has all the answers and has allowed for and provided all the necessary tools to remove myself from whatever prison I have decided to encase myself in. When I am consumed by my fear (aka stressed out), I wake up every single morning at 3 am completely unable to go back to sleep. It matters not how much of that sweet plant, mari-juana, I have smoked, I can always count on waking up at 3 in the morning. Of course up until that point, I will have slept like the dead, but if fear is present, I know I am waking up at 3 period. Isn’t that a strange phenomenon? How is it possible that I can do that? That any of us can do that? Well, I have come to realize that our minds, and the limitations we impose on Higher Self, are responsible for the fucked up patterns. Because I allow myself to be incapacitated by fear, I lose control over myself and thus every single situation. I become sad, depressed, jealous, and/or negative very easily and in doing so, subconsciously tell myself every single day that I am not going to sleep thoroughly and peacefully. Now, of course I don’t remember ever thinking those thoughts, but that is my point! The consciousness that allows me to move, breathe, and live is also telling me to wake up and focus on whatever stressful situation is present. You guys, that type of power is amazing! Imagine if I used it to focus on the positive things happening simultaneously with the negative situation (because, lets face it, there is always a silver lining)! The situation becomes insignificant because I will have found the value of its presence and thus have taken control over my perspective. If I perceive things to be a different way, then they are! Are you feeling me? I am finally starting to get what ALL those motivational and positive gurus out there have been saying. They literally have been saying the same things over and over: the formula to ultimate happiness. They have been saying that we already have any tool needed to elevate ourselves to the next level if only we tap into it. Sure, I could hear and shallowly understand what they were saying, but on a fundamental level, I was missing the message which was, “Hey, you. YOU are controlling this whole situation. You asked for this in some way and you have positioned yourself systematically and consistently for this exact moment.” I have control? YES, I do and so do you! I don’t know about you, but isn’t that such an immensely empowering recognition? If the laws of the universe say, “you get exactly what you give,” then if I gave my life nothing but positivity that I CHOOSE, of course my consequences will also be good!

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Remember when I said in another post that good decisions yield good consequences? Well, here it is in practice! I guess I am just late to the party, because here I am, at 5:39 am feeling compelled to write this blog post after nearly two weeks of not having done it at all! I could have chosen to wake up, lie in bed, grab my phone and tune my HIgher Self out with bullshit, manufactured distractions, but this time I didn’t. I CHOSE to be productive because I realize I hold the power to my own success and failure in equal measure! This revelation changed my life in this exact moment, because the present is all that matters. I learned a very interesting fact this week, that has me fascinated and that is this: the subconscious only knows the present. The past and future DO NOT exist to the subconscious mind. It does NOT CARE what information it is fed, so long as it IS fed. The question from that is this: why not control my mental diet? Why not live for this exact second and not a single millisecond before or beyond now?

As people, we are so consumed with the maybe of tomorrow and the “coulda, shoulda, woulda” of yesterday, that we neglect the presence and power of NOW. What if I lived each moment thinking only of this moment and driven by the positive intent to happily impact those around me? Yeah…are you starting to get the picture? There’s really no limit on whatever you just imagined. It can be as big as you allow it to be. I woke up totally in touch with my Higher Self this morning and ALLOWED it to drive this car. I simply desired it, believed I could do it, and DID! Simple as that. I wanted to feel happy and fulfilled and knew writing a new and different blog post to SHARE (key word) with other people would give me what I desired! It’s cyclical! This is the exact same method that brings negativity to my life. I decided at some point, subconsciously, that I would turn the results into something I actually wanted. THIS is the marvelous effect cannabis has brought to my life. It allowed me to relax mentally and emotionally enough to start learning from myself. I see absolutely nothing negative in this moment. Right now, I am aware of my Higher Self, which is the best version of me. Actually, not only am I aware of it, I AM IT. It’s almost like a completely different person, a POSITIVE person. A person with an insatiable desire and WILLINGNESS to learn and progress led only by positive intent. This is what God is to me. The ability to harness my natural talents and tools within my environment, which is of my own creation (of course). Do you see how EVERYTHING always ties back to personal choices? If that’s happening to me, it damn sure is happening to the other 7 or 8 billion people in the world. Each of us are living the consequences of our decisions, which are purely based on our thoughts. How good or bad those consequences are depends on how much positive intent was involved in the process.

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What do I mean by positive intent? Positive intent is the concern of bringing positivity to others. It is totally fine to be selfish WHEN you lead with positive intent. That looks like this example: I want to be happy. I already know making other people happy brings me great joy so I decide to share goodness and thus immediately bring happiness to myself. Did you get that? The intent that my happiness is dependent on the happiness my decisions bring to others. This logic applies to every situation because the situation doesn’t really matter. The important factor is my reaction, which is always within my control. So, I can be feeling creative and want to do an art project. I could totally sit on my own and let my creative juices flow, but maybe I have neglected spending as much time with The Kiddo. Here’s the positive intent: invite her to be creative with me. Truly a simple solution, but lets face it, one that many of us fail to implement because we are so consumed about what WE want and not about how we can be of service to others. Guys, this formula of happiness = positive intent + action never fails. I always somehow get exactly what I wanted in the first place out of the new scenario that included bringing positivity to someone else. Never. Fails. I have applied this to many different areas of my life (romantic, professional, financial, etc) and it works every time. Now, the problem is I do not consistently do it. At some point I choose to be selfish without any positive intent and things start to get ugly fast. Here is where words like greedy, conceited, and shallow come in. Bringing positivity to others can be whatever the situation calls for. Whether it’s visiting a friend in the hospital or offering a helping hand to a stranger or writing a helpful blog post. Those are situations that were driven by the desire to shed light on someone outside of myself. It only makes sense that I too will benefit from those actions. I am sure I will gain exactly what I wanted to!

I never used to think like this, guys! I never used to focus on my mental and spiritual well-being in this way. Oh, how I’ve changed (and FOR THE BETTER)! I’m finally snatching change and in doing so improving my life because I believe I am in control. Knowing I possess the power is empowering and when I fail to harness it positively, that’s when the sadness, depression, and anxiety can seep in. It seeps because I now have the understanding that I chose to feel that way. I chose to be in whatever situation causes fear and I chose to give in to it. The disappointment in the failure to choose control and happiness is what causes all that negative spiraling we are all guilty for. This new way of thinking has been greatly propelled by my use of medical marijuana. Yes, at some point in my life (in 2011, actually) I decided that I was going to change for the better, but the boost weed has given my growth is immeasurable. My relationships with my child, boyfriend, family, friends, and strangers have completely changed. People that have known me for years often can’t recognize me, physically AND spirtually. They are constantly shocked to know who I truly am underneath all the bullshit I put on top of myself. The change is mental/spiritual and by design, trickles in and impacts other things as a side effect. My skin is clearer than it was 6 years ago, I am healthier physically, I workout, I am more confident, and the list literally could go on and on. Hell, I have a blog now! That in it and of itself is amazing because for the past 15 years people have CONSISTENTLY told me I should write. I always technically could, but didn’t desire it. I suppressed my own talent and ignored it not realizing how much positivity it could bring to others and ultimately to myself. Somehow the universe still served it up on a platter; a platter based on my own damn menu! Ha! I just cannot get over how this works!

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Even as I write this, I am amazed by the power of my own being. It’s contagious because now I want to apply this to EVERYTHING and watch what happens! Tonight we are having a sleepover for my daughter. I spent yesterday being stressed out by the thought of all that still needs to be accomplished by this afternoon. I wasted so much energy of the situations, that I ignored the fact that it will be an easy success if I choose it to be so. It’s now 6:15 and I have decided that WE all will have a blast because I want it to be awesome. Period. The Kiddo will enjoy herself and so will all of her friends because I am going to put all of my effort into making sure they do. In doing so, I KNOW we all will be happy and carefree. I am looking forward to writing the next blog post and sharing what a major success the party was. Stay tuned, guys. Things are about to be AWESOME!

Oh, and remember to be thankful and grateful for every single amazing thing in your life today. Why? Because it feels good (feels better when you’re high, though. hehe 🤗)!

The Pursuit of Higher Self

 

 

Active High Sesh: #FlashBackFriday

“Good decisions yield positive consequences.” – Hardy Har

Hey guys! Welcome back to my weed spot, haha! Last night Dean and I were looking at old pictures of my family and me when I was a little girl. We recently did some reorganizing in the bedroom and came across these photos. I don’t know about you, but I love when I see old pictures of my life and the lives of my loved ones. I get to feeling all warm and fuzzy inside!

Enjoying those pictures was the first step in lifting my spirits from the funk they were in! Earlier, I came home in a terrible mood. I was sad (had been crying earlier), stressed, and feeling particularly sorry for myself. Ever make shitty decisions that you KNOW are shitty decisions and make them anyway (please tell me I’m not alone,  haha)? Well, that’s what I have been doing, not all the time of course, but enough tiny poor decisions to accumulate into a big problem at a later date. Turns out that obscure, “sometime in the future” date is NOW and I was feeling the weight of it all. There was a moment, while I was wallowing, when I came to realize that life is made up of small and seemingly insignificant decisions every single day. The sum of those decisions is what makes up the events and occurrences in our lives. So, in keeping with that line of thinking, I had no choice but to claim responsibility for my choices and buck up and fix it all (or at least set a plan in motion)! That’s one of the super powers medical marijuana has done for my anxiety, depression, and PTSD. It has allowed me to open my mind to the fact that I am the driver of my life. I can choose every single consequence by making careful decisions. That is truly an empowering feeling! Anyway, once I came home, saw the pics, started cooking, and took my first puff of Africa, I was well on my way to excellence. Let’s get into it and talk menus:   

Weed: Durban Poison  (click the link to learn more) and Crystalline

Food: Would you judge me if I said pork chops again? Dean begged me. Hahaha!

*BONUS FOOD: Strawberry Funnel Cake, courtesy of Sno-Balls. (Ya’ll these f*ckers are a problem. DE.LIC.IOUS!


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I’m not crazy about the picture, but the message is everything!

 

We started smoking about 1:45, maybe a little before.

1:51 I am writing this while also cooking, smoking, and looking at pictures of my parents and me when I was young (uh…multi-task much???). Can I just say I was so freaking adorable??!!! No wonder why people liked pinching my cheeks as a kid! Lol! 1:51

2:04 Well, I was having a particularly shitty day (reference above). Just feeling down about a lot of things and I started getting angry with myself because I could see the areas I was fucking up. For example, it was like knowing I could have earned an A on a test, but didn’t because I chose not to study. Something like that. Anyway, I was DEFINITELY not higher self when I came home, but Dean really came through and helped me feel better. One of those things was to break out the sativa, heavyweight champ Durban Poison, aka Africa (to us)! This strain is LIFE! I immediately began to feel lighter about things that just minutes before heavily plagued me. I was able to see all the great things that happened throughout the day that I had previously ignored. It’s like I had a complete change of mind. This is why I refer to myself after I have used cannabis as “higher self.”

So not only did I get to experience THAT ^^^ , I was also able to focus on a task that needed to be completed. For me that is writing this blog post, but I could be focused on any other task just as equitably. Prior to writing this post, I cooked our entire dinner and cleaned the kitchen. At that time, that’s what I needed to focus on and I accomplished it without complaint. You guys, I cannot tell you how much time I have wasted by mentally complaining about the problem!! When I am high like this, I truly am a much better version of myself fundamentally. With proper, regular meditation after smoking, I don’t doubt how capable of continuously rising above each situation I will become with or without the use of mj. I understand that it takes too much energy to focus on something negative. It’s much more effective to focus on the solution! 2:19

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On left: me prior to Africa   On Right: me after Africa

 

3:04 Wow! Took a long break away to eat dinner and converse with Dean. I decided to record our conversation so I will have a listen and decide if I will post it on the new Podcast tomorrow. Eek! Anyway, so now I am back and happily typing away, but am engaged in what Dean is talking about.  Btw, sometime before I stopped typing the last note, I smoked some Crystalline on top of Africa (clearly Dean was trying to blow my top off with this massive concotion!) and O M G I had a total Half Baked moment! Remeber when they were flying over NYC? Swear to God, I felt that damn high! I totally wasn’t ready! Lol!! I pulled myself together enough to type the last note, though.  3:10

3:22 Hi again. More conversations with Dean on the recording about the power of our personal control and what it all means. When I truly think about it, all I can focus on are my tiny decisions leading to bigger decisions, with bigger consequences. We are only as good as our decisions; good decisions yield positive consequences. When I think about how I can literally control every single way I absorb an experience, I feel empowered. I hate to say it, I didn’t always feel that way. I have changed so much, for the better, with or without weed. The weed just elevated my progress and presence even more. 3:33 (got side tracked with a side convo with Dean for a bit)

3:34 About to smoke more Africa sans crystalline (thank God!). 3:34

4:33 Hahaha an hour later and I am back. We’ve been eating and talking more. haha It helps (but doesn’t help if I don’t post it) that we are recording this because it fills in a lot of gaps. One of these days I will get around to the podcast. I still have some concerns about that. Who knows what will fly out of this mouth! LBVS! 4:37

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5:49 So, we decided to take a puff or two more out of our good friend, Glass Castle and start taking photos for today’s post. We are by no means photographers, but we are having fun learning photography tricks and tips. I think am done for the night. I wrote 757 words so far and I haven’t even written the intro or summary and I did all the photography myself. Dean gave his creative expertise and I took the shots. Now it’s time for a movie and to puff the last night of freedom away (the kiddo is back from camp tomorrow. YAY!!!!) OH, and Dean ordered funnel cake from Sno-Balls. It’s going down fo reaaal!!

Tootles,

Hardy Har


Summary Note:

Durban Poison is one of those über special strains that we only break out for parties, celebrations, or in this case, someone is feeling EXTRA shitty-pants (me) because it is so strong! It really is perfect for a party or concert. I felt social, energetic, uplifted, and HAPPY! I didn’t feel like I would be taken advantage of if I wasn’t home. I still had all my faculties in place…UNTIL Dean introduced Crystalline to the mix.

Now, I’ve written before about my love for Crystalline, but don’t get it twisted: that MFer is a serious jolt to the system, thanks to it’s 96% THC content! It dragged my happy ass straight to euphoria, which is truly where I love to be, BUT not when I am trying to work. I can tell you now that when I took my one and only hit of the two together, my boat was DEFINITELY rocked! I had to take 5 minutes to get my life together because I was suddenly feeling the desire to just listen to some good music and dance the night away! Lol! Not exactly great for trying to write, do chores, or anything else productive. If I was at a party and I wasn’t the DD, I would have been the life of the party; for anything requiring focus, I don’t recommend adding Crystalline to your bowl.

I am surprised by how much tolerance I have built up! I remember when Africa used to knock my socks off. It still does, but I am way in control of myself now. I also realized last night I have smoked about 50 various strains!! WHOA! I am such a stoner, now! Hahaha. Gotta say, I am so not ashamed of it. My life has improved in many ways and will continue to improve as long as my mind always it to do so. This is why I will always keep a stash of my favorite medical sativas (actually, everything I smoke is medicinal marijuana).
The Pursuit of Higher Self

ACTIVE HIGH SESH: Asian Fantasy and Pork Chops

Hi there, friends. Welcome back to my little blog about my big love for marijuana! Today’s post is all about the fun we had yesterday with the wildly popular, and hard to find) strain, Asian Fantasy. Alright, let’s get into it! Menus:

Weed: Asian Fantasy – check out details on this sexy sativa here.

Food: Homemade pork chops (yummmm), mashed potatoes, and green beans


3:55 Started smoking about half hour to an hour ago. We are finally trying Asian Fantasy, a fabulous sativa strain, for the first time! Also, in keeping with the theme of “firsts,” I will be cooking while smoking for the first time. I can’t believe I haven’t done that yet!

4:00 Well apparently Dean thinks I turn into fuckin Emeril Lagasse when I cook and smoke! Lol! He is GRUBBIN’ Hungry Hungry Hippo style on these pork chops I cooked! He said these are the best pork chops I ever cooked and I need to be high as a kite every time I cook! Lmao! They are bomb, though. ahaha 4:02

4:03 Dean just lost track of time, guys! Lol! He was really convinced it’s been thirty minutes since I started documenting. Nope, it’s been less than 10. Yup…the guy is baked out of his mind right now. Hahaha! Even though he’s high, he took some really great shots for today’s post! So, HI! This another first for the blog: pictures of moi! ::waves hello:: 4:0622070287_10213915913199596_1924896241_o

4:06 I am so high right now and yet, I am blogging, eating, laughing, and working my Facebook group (oh, yeah…I have one of those. Click the link and join) all at the same time! This strain has turned me into a multi-tasking, super woman! And as a random side note: Dean has abandoned the “useless fork and knife” and reverted to a primitive manner and is all teeth and fingers with this pork chop! HAHAHAHA! I really wish you could hear how hard I am laughing right now! Dude is GONE! LOL! He also just said his fingers are shaking (as he lights up another bowl). 4:10

4:12 I forgot to mention that the Princess Kiddo is off to Science Camp this week so Dean and I are playing HARD right now! Haha. We never get to start smoking so early!!  4:12

4:15 Dean just turned on good ole Bob Marley, because in good stoner fashion, Bob’s music is LIFE! Lol “We Jammin…” 4:15

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4:20 Now Dean is playing my favorite song, “Is This Love!” God, I LOVE this song!! Oh, and Dean’s plate looks like he licked it. Lmao! Why am I the fat one again?! Haha. Laughing, but very serious! 4:20

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The yummy chops before they were savagely consumed.

4:23 Just received an event request for a committee meeting at my daughter’s school on facebook [clicks “can’t go” immediately]. I just can’t with those meetings. Please tell me I am not the only mom to do that! I volunteer, go to teacher meetings, attend performances, etc., but those meetings are the straw that broke the camel’s back! lol 4:30 (it took a whole 7 minutes to write that…yeah, I was fucked up! haha)

4:31 Dean thinks this strain rivals that of his favorite: Pink Mango. This shit is fire, though. Haha. It definitely has me feeling uplifted and motivated. Dean just said it gives that “frolic in the field type of feeling.” Lmao what??? Ahahaha! Ironically, he got that from me. Back when I first smoked Girl Scout Cookies, I told him I wanted to “frolic in the field” to which he replied, “let’s go workout” and so, we did. I literally ran around my big backyard with weights in hand, frolicking merrily. #GoodTimes Lol. 4:34

4:40 Just had a nice little chat with Dean about Cuba. haha. So, those who know me personally, know I LOVED my Cuban experience! 4:40

4:50 So, it’s been a good amount of time since we first started smoking and I am still feeling pretty high. The intensity is almost the same that it was when we first began smoking tonight. Dean is now playing FarCry 4 again (bleh). Sorry, but this game is boring to me when I’m high. I prefer the fast-paced thrill of GTA or the chilling maze of Resident Evil. This game is cool, but it doesn’t grab my attention like the other games we play. Anyway, my high is maintaining very well. 4:53

4:56 I think Dean has smoked himself retarded…again! He literally just zoned out, game paddle in hand, staring at my purse across the room. LMAO! He truly had no clue he zoned out until I told him I was writing about his antics. Haha He is HIGH tonight, ya’ll! haha! 4:48

5:01 Alright, ya’ll. I’m signing off the blog for the night. Time to watch a movie and smoke some more. Haha!

Til Next Time,

Hardy Har

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Super faded at this point.

 

Quick notes about the high:

I have to say how much I thoroughly enjoyed Asian Fantasy! It once again proved why I am so in love with smoking sativa strains. They are so mentally uplifting and physically stimulating. Just like many of the other sativas I enjoy, this strain provided the hyper-sensitive sense of touch (which explains why this strain is a favorite for enhanced sexy time) I am fond of while also allowing me to be focused enough to get quite a bit accomplished. Cooking while smoking was super fun! Not only was I cooking, but Dean was taking photos and I was cleaning as I cooked (not something I usually do). We were both social, had moments of silliness, but were able to buckle down and get things accomplished! Not to mention, the food was very yummy.

One of the main reasons why I love sativa strains so much is that they always leave me feeling energized and happy the next day. Indica strains don’t have that same effect on me. I usually feel sleepy and slightly lethargic the next day. Today I am in great spirits, my anxiety is gone, and I feel physically energetic. Not a bad way to start the day. Hope you enjoyed this read, guys. Cheers.

Tools of the Trade

Hey y’all! Hardy Har here again! Thanks for checking out my latest post!

Today (technically this was written yesterday, 9/11/17) was one of those super awesome days that was a combination of The Universe (yeah, I believe in that) hooking me up and hard work/determination that ultimately resulted in some awesome opportunities, and by association, more work! Lol! Funny how that works out. That was pretty much the case for both Dean and me as his business venture is REALLY getting off the ground. Since we have been work mules all day, we wanted to relax with a smoke-out by the pool (gotta love Cali weather)! I invited my neighbor, AKA Vecina (neighbor in Spanish), and we sat in patio chairs while he floated away (literally) in the pool. Because we were outside and it was a sort of an impromptu thing, we didn’t dab or use the Castles (bongs) because, let’s face it, sometimes you don’t want to be bothered with all that equipment!😂That got me to thinking about all the stuff we’ve accumulated since we began smoking in February and boy, oh boy, is it a lot (to us)! So, let’s get into it and see what we got. *Remember when I edit the next day, those comments are in purple.

1. Twisty Glass Pipe by 7Pipe: $50 on TwistyShop

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Photo Credit: http://www.thisiswhyimbroke.com

 

Twisty, as we like to call it, is up first. This little baby is a smoker’s delight. It’s small, convenient, and glass! There’s no need for paper (we only smoke out of glass or vape pens) or the annoyance of rolling, but it has all the benefits of a blunt. The best part about it is you can fill it with whatever ground flowers you want and drift away. You can take tiny baby hits or inhale as much in one breath that your lungs will allow. It really is up to you, but the blunt has the ability to just keep going and going. Before you know it, you are somewhere in the sky and you aren’t quite sure how you got there. I recommend this for anyone who loves smoking a blunt, but hates the hassle and expense of using papers.

2. Water Bongs: AKA Magic Castle and Glass Castle

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Zob Bongs, Photo Credit: Aqua LabTech

 

Next on the list are the two Castles. When we first started smoking, we used our first bong, Glass Castle A LOT! I mean, we were getting smashed and we were total newbies! We had no idea that we basically started running before we learned how to walk with this marijuana stuff. Anyway, Glass Castle is a 16″ bong. It doesn’t have any fancy colors or cool identifying marks, but it is my favorite of the two. Here’s a slightly smaller one similar to what we have. I really like that the neck is short enough to keep the hit concentrated, but it’s long enough that it doesn’t burn as badly once you inhale.

The other bong is by Zob and we nicknamed it Magic Castle. You can find one similar to the one we have here. This rig is nearly 2 ft tall, measuring a staggering 23.5″ height! Needless to say, this fucker gets your high HIGH! Haha. No joke, many have fallen because of this one, including very seasoned smokers. One time, we smoked with one of my cousins who gets high aaaall the time. He took ONE hit and was DONE! He just couldn’t handle a hit that big combined with the organic top shelf premium stuff we smoke. Needless to say, tread carefully with these big babies. They aren’t for the feint of heart!

3. Pipes: Wesley Pipes, Swirls, and Trinket

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Photo Source: http://www.freewtc.com

 

Often times when you buy marijuana products from the dispensaries, the employees will often give you a freebie or two. These freebies vary, but usually you can get a tiny little pipe and/or a grinder to grind your buds. About three weeks ago, Dean came home with this teeny tiny, little pipe. I mean, it is so little and extra adorable that we named it Trinket. I think this is perfect for personal smoke seshes that will allow you to get faded, but not über high. The pot of the pipe holds just enough for a couple of small to medium hits. It’s also great to stick in your purse or pocket and go.

Swirls is new and super cool! It’s got a really cool multi-color swirled design and a FAT pot! This is perfect for sharing and it definitely gets you up there! I really like it. We’ve had it about a week and it is already starting to look ravaged. HAHA!

Last, but not least is Wesley Pipes. It was the very first tool we used when we smoked the first time and it was the only thing we used until we got Glass Castle. Unfortunately, Wesley Pipes went to live with my sister, Ki, for her personal use. Although Wesley is dearly departed from our care, it holds a special place in our hearts. ♥

4. Vape and Dab Pens:

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Photo Source: http://www.thepicta.com

 

Lastly, we have the pens. We have a red vape pen that is more trouble (and expense) than it’s worth. There’s a nasty plastic taste when you pull the vapor. Dean enjoyed smoking with it, but I didn’t. Wasn’t for me. Next.

On Friday he got some OC Pharm Dab Pens, courtesy of the dispensary his uncle works at. It was our first time using them and we REALLY like them! Talk about convenient! Man, all you gotta do is take it out of the box and suck! No loading weed, no scraping wax, nothing to clean up. It contains 500 mg of clear cannabis concentrate and we have two strains: Girl Scout Cookies (sativa dominant) and OG Headband (indica dominant). Although these pens are super amazing, I DO NOT recommend you use them if you are not accustomed to dabbing; specifically dabbing more than once in a row. I say that last part because it is similar to smoking a blunt. It is handy and it’s easy to take a puff and then take another one consecutively. I made that mistake last week and was high for 48 hours WITHOUT having to smoke again. Real talk: that shit $*@%$& me up! And because it’s us, we smoked both strains. I was GOOD on smoking the whole weekend. I felt the effects of that ultra HIGHbrid from Thursday to Sunday night. Wow! ::dramatic pause here:: That being said it was the Best. Sleep. Ever. Not to mention I had the energy to take a pole dancing class on Saturday (side note: that is F-U-N!) and The Princess to her Girl Scouts meeting on Sunday while having labelled over 400 spray bottles for Dean’s business AFTER work Thursday and Friday. Yeah… Just like that run on sentence, my focus and productivity went on and on…and on (thanks to my suped up high). And when it was time to go to bed, I slept soundly, peacefully and dreamless.

Anyway ya’ll, I’m a tad bit baked right now and it’s 7:45 p.m., so I’m signing off and playing this here Resident Evil 7 with Dean (because clearly we love the gory horror stuff when we smoke). Thanks for peeping ya girl.

Til next time…

Hardy Har

ACTIVE HIGH SESH: Saturday Burnout

Yoooo! Welcome back, y’all! Thanks for checking out another Active High Sesh (AHS). What that means is I’m getting hiiiigh right now! It’s 4:36 p.m. and about 84639505° in this hot ass heat, but I’m goood. Haha! Alright, let’s talk menus for today:

Weed: Jack Herrer and THC-a Crystalline (96% THC)

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Photo Credit: greendoorwest.com/products/jack-herer

 

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THC-a Crystalline / Photo Source http://www.guildextracts.com

Food: Eggs, Sausage, Grits, Popsicles and to be continued…

Drinks: Smart Water and Redd’s WICKED Apple beer (so damn good, y’all! Tastes like apple cider, but with a kick!)

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Photo Credit: Reddswickedapple.com

 

Activities: Grand Theft Auto V and swimming

So, how this will go is I am going to narrate my active high sesh the next day. Those comments will be in purple. The active high sesh is grey. 4:41

4:46: Dean swears two things happen when I smoke an upper: 1. I get super gangsta and fun (hahaha) and 2. I am the best GTA driver ever. Lol! Right now he’s driving and all I hear are sirens and screaming because his driving skills suck! Lol! He had the idea to put some cheats in and bump us to 4 stars on GTA and see who can escape the cops. Let’s put it this way: it won’t be him! 😭😂 4:49

4:50: Already he is trying to cheat! Dean cheats in every single game he plays from Monopoly to GTA. If it’s a game, he will try to cheat. Smh Lol he wants to go in invisible mode. ::Eye roll:: Anyway, he’s dead now. Lol My turn. 4:51

5:02: I died! Lmao! Do-over!!! That didn’t go as well as I thought it would. #Oops 5:02

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Photo courtesy of Photo by Carlos Domínguez on Unsplash

 

5:07: Wait, kiddo came home for a bit. I think we’ll hit the pool now. 5:09

6:41: Back from the pool! The kiddo had a blast! Dean dunked and slammed and splashed us to death, but we had an enormous amount of fun! Have I ever said how much of a better parent I am when I smoke? Seriously, I am much more open, fun, understanding, and patient. It’s really a great thing! 6:44 Although my daughter doesn’t know her mommy uses cannabis products, she definitely benefits from my usage. My parenting skills, ironically, have improved SO much since I began using marijuana. I think I will write a post about that later.

7:01: Is it just me or does anyone else hate the pool/beach aftermath? I mean, all the incessant dripping all over the place is super annoying. Ok, rant over. Gonna smoke again as soon as the kiddo heads to good ole Nana’s house. 😀 Man, shoutout to Mom for always coming through with the babysitting and support. The little girl loves hanging with Nana!

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Photo Credit: Misery Still Frame Columbia Pictures/ Castle Rock Films

 

Alright guys, that was pretty much the end of my AHS. I was high for much longer than I actually documented, but because I smoked mostly uppers (sativa strains), I am not as focused as I can be with an indica strain (downer). The night further went on to include a marathon of Stephen King movies. We watched Dark Tower, Pet Sematary, and Misery. I’d never seen Misery before so that was a real treat! Gotta love the KING of horror and mind-fucking. Haha. Anyway, that’s about it for my AHS on Saturday. Hope you enjoyed the read.

Til next time,

Hardy Har

 

 

 

Enamored: Weed Just FEELS So Good

via Daily Prompt: Enamored

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Hi friends. Welcome back to my little blog. So, today I was catching up on some reading and I saw that the Daily Prompt for today is the word enamored. The Daily Prompt is meant to encourage/inspire bloggers to write posts based on the word of the day. So far, I haven’t been inspired by other Daily Prompts, but me being a love bug, I got all hot and bothered by enamored. I mean, come on, just saying the word brings a pleasant feeling. Maybe that’s just me and now you all think I am a total weirdo! LOL! Well, I write a weed blog, so I guess there are more strange things than my love for words. Anyway, this word got me thinking about how much I enjoy smoking marijuana and thus a new blog post was born! That being said, please allow me to share my top three reasons why I love my good friend, Mary Jane.xmhfx896

 

  1. I focus like a laser beam! I’ve written before about the benefit of a focused mind thanks to the use of cannabis products. I don’t know about you, but sometimes I just can’t sit still and get things done! Whenever I smoke a good hybrid or an Indica like OG 91, I make it a point to start tasks I may have been avoiding. Nuisance chores like doing the dishes, folding laundry, and cleaning the cat litter are not so problematic when I am on a trip after a high sesh. I’ve even written a blog post of two while high. 1423668286
  2. Sex, Sex, and MORE SEX! Ok, so you’re probably wondering why this wasn’t number one and I can’t say I have a good answer for you, BUT it definitely makes the list! Now, don’t go thinking you can a smoke a little weed and it will make you want to have sex. No, that’s not exactly how it works. What happens is it enhances sex; makes it way hotter and better. A good example of a strain that has some sex enhancing qualities is Grand Daddy Purple. Tried it for the first time over the weekend (major shout out to KUSHLAND, a favorite dispensary) and let’s just say, it lived up to its reputation. 😉fea_24pot1_t620
  3. Variety is life! There are so many strains, combinations, formulas, brands, and strengths of the stuff! Take your pick between wax concentrates, powder concentrates, moon rocks, space rocks, kief, and flowers! You can smoke it, eat it, and inject it (yeah, some folks take THC via IVs). It’s hard to get bored with a smorgasbord like that!

So what do you think? If you’re like me, it’s hard not to be enamored by this multi-faceted little plant.

Til next time, tokers.

-Hardy Har